Monday, December 7, 2015

Moms Worry

Tomorrow is the day! The day I get to see my newest little girl. We are scheduled for a c-section (yes, all of mine have been c-sections and I'm good with that ... a different post for a different day), and in if I were to confess, I'm looking forward to my hospital stay. 

My body is tired after carrying this little one around for 9 months along with the other 3 rowdy cute kids who reside in our home. They have been so excited (well, the girls are anyway) for the newest addition, but that doesn't keep them from dirtying dishes or asking me to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner, or jumping through mud puddles, etc.

Right now I'm looking forward to someone bringing me breakfast, lunch and dinner and the quiet time I will have (you know, between the nurse/doctor visits and friends and family visits that I totally love! and the nighttime feedings) to bond with this new little one. 

At the same time, I worry. I worry about my three other babes. What if someone can't find their shoes in the morning before school? What if they forget their lunch boxes or their homework? What if they wake up in the middle of the night and forget that mom isn't there to snuggle them for a couple of days? What if their toast gets cut into squares instead of triangles?

Don't get me wrong... my mother is going to be here to help take care of them and she did an amazing job of taking care of me! But moms worry. We want everyone to be happy. We want everything to be just right for our kiddos. And let's face it, there are some things that only moms do ... like put notes in their lunchboxes ... read scripture stories during breakfast time ... warm their blankets just before bed time so they are comfy cozy and don't want to get up. 

Yes, they will all be living. No, they won't go to school in dirty clothes. No, they won't starve or freeze at night. But I will miss being there for all of the little things. And I will worry. But just a little. Because it will all start back over when I return!